Passed Away.

Assalamualaikum.. Hari ni aku tiba-tiba je teringat dekat arwah Akmal. Siapa dia?Nama full arwah Nur Akmal binti Zailani. Dulu dia dormate aku dan dalam masa yang sama, kawan senegeri aku yakni Terengganu. Pengalaman terakhir?? aku ingat lagi masa tu dia nak balik bermalam pertengahan tahun. Malam before dia balik dia kemas semua barang dalam loker dia yang dekat stor pun dia ambik sekali macam nak balik cuti akhir tahun. Kitorang borak jela sambil tolong dia kemas barang. Masa tu aku form 2 sama la macam arwah. Aku ada je tanya dia 'apsal beria kemas barang ni?'. Dia tak cakap apa apa selain senyum je. Aku kesian tengok arwah sebab demam teruk before balik mungkin tu sebab dia mintak permission balik awal sikit. Aku ingat lagi masa aku dengan kawan aku borak dekat meja bulat bawah, tiba tiba ada gula-gula turun dari langit haha aku pikir hujan gula-gula tapi bila pandang atas, arwah yang baling. See? pemurah kan? Honestly, I love her. Dia tegur aku buat kali yang terakhir dekat facebook tapi aku layan dia nak taknak je sebab masa tu aku takde mood. Bila cuti habis, arwah still tak balik. A week later, form 2 ada program dengan form 6 and kitorang kena bermalam dekat sekolah. Before depart, we supposed to eat dinner at dining hall. Lepas habis makan, cikgu Azni panggil aku. Bila dia cakap Akmal dah meninggal aku langsung tak percaya then cikgu cakap 'tolong jangan heboh berita ni dekat siapa siapa until your program end'. Kepala otak aku tak dapat interpret langsung ayat tu. heh! Keluar je dari dewan makan aku tengok kawan-kawan aku menangis. they knew it. Satu batch menangis teruk gila dekat utp. Hiba sangat suasana time tu. Malam pertama program, kitorang buat tahlil untuk arwah. Lepas program jati diri tu habis, aku yang paling takut nak balik dorm. sebab apa?Aku rindu sangat dekat arwah sampai terbayang bayang. Dahlah aku punya katil sebelah katil arwah. Dua minggu aku tak tidur atas katil aku tumpang tidur dekat katil adibah setiap malam. Bukan apa, mentaliti aku ni tak kuat lagi time tu kalau aku tidur atas katil aku jugak tiba-tiba aku terjaga tengah malam lepas tu nampak arwah tengah tidur katil sebelah acana?? Nauzubillah. Sampai la satu malam aku termimpi arwah, muka arwah bercahaya,putih sangat then dia cakap dekat aku 'awak jangan takut mati, kalau takut mati maksudnya banyak dosa'. Sampai sekarang aku ingat kata-kata arwah. Lepas mimpi tu, aku dapat kekuatan untuk tidur dekat katil aku. Bagi aku arwah Akmal sangat lucky sebab mati muda, dosa tak banyak lagi.InsyaAllah syurga will be yours. Mati tu pasti tapi kita yang pilih nak meninggalkan dunia yang sementara ni dalam keadaan yang baik atau sebaliknya. Ingat guys, alam kita lepas ni Alam barzakh so jangan leka sangat dekat dunia ni. bye

Abah.

Bismillah . Hari ni aku nak cerita pasal abah . Seriously sekarang aku betul-betul risau pasal abah. Kenaaaapa? sebab abah ada satu penyakit KENCING MANIS atau budak-budak bio cakap penyakit diabetes. Teruk? tak nampak sangat tapi yang aku risau abah selalu sangat makan benda MANIS. 

Masa aku balik bermalam aku selongkarla peti ais dan aku jumpa coke, pepsi and all sort of sweet drinks. Bila aku tanya siapa punya umi cakap abah punya. Ya Allah. Tadi aku tengok abah makan buah dalam tin (koktail) and yes benda tu memang maaaanis . Kenapa abah makan benda yang sah-sah abah tak boleh makan? Aku sedih tengok abah. FYI, dia dah pencen. Obviously, old man.

 Aku nampak kaki abah bengkak tak tahu kenapa tapi aku still dapat rasa kesakitan dia. Aku asyik fikir benda negatif je pasal penyakit abah. Kaki bengkak, kandungan gula dalam darah naik mendadak, kena potong kaki. Nauzubillah. Lagi satu, abah tak boleh tidur tanpa bukak air-cond dia cakap panas maybe side effect penyakit diabetes.

Pernah satu ketika abah pantang daripada makan nasi sebab KANJI yang ada dalam nasik tu. Abah tak makan nasi kecuali beras yang ada gambar TAJ MAHAL. Sebab tu aku nak jadi doktor kalau boleh aku nak rawat sendiri family aku yang sakit.

 As a daughter , I will keep praying for abah. Hopefully abah will recover soon. InsyaAllah.

 kalau boleh aku nak buang semua makanan maaaaanis dekat rumah ni demi abah.

    

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Valuable experience :)

Assalamualaikum . Before i come home , I have gone through so many events . my friends and I went to Port Dickson for a programme . what programme ? A programme based on academic (spm) la . I don't want to tell you about the programme . After that , my teacher , Mr.Hafiz who also known as counselor of SMAPL decided to bring the participants to visit 3D ART GALLERY . We were excited. p/s : participant (smapians and shahardians) . I could be happier if the participant just smapians! when the other school joined us in a bus , i felt like errr . STRANGERS + AWKWARD = infinity -.- what did they do ? erm , malas lah nak bukak aib diorang . 3D ART GALLERY , my first impression, WOO bapak cantik . you better visit the gallery . i was 'jakun' there . seriously . Unfortunately , my camera had died at the last floor of the gallery . what the ... i met the students of shahardin at every place of the gallery and i be like -....- 'serabut siaa' they posed like that place was theirs . because of 'serabutness' i left the place and joined my friends at cafe . THE END . then , Ustaz Adnin Roslan , the writer of TARBIAH SENTAP book, came to smapl . He came to give us a talk. I did not know him at all before this . during the talk , my soul was calm and ermm i dont know how to describe it . Allah had sent him to open the smapians' hearts about the fault in our life routine especially the wrong / the sin of IKHTILAT . we paid undivided attention during the talk  and i was the one who 'tersentap' that night . Aiman Banna also came to smapl . He is a blogger and the writer of a book which is HENSHIN . I asked my friend what was exactly the meaning of HENSHIN? HENSHIN IS 'DAKWAH' . yes , he was so handsome . grr , dijah , tundukkn pandangan . He is 19 year old , two years older than me . He was a sbp student (KISAS) . The issues of his talk were not too heavy and could be accepted by students like me . Alhamdulillah . Then , we had a feast known as BBQ day on the same day Hafiz Hamidun came to smap . after the feast , i was 'buncit' and promised to myself to not eat any food for a month . crawling like a snake to the main hall for Hafiz Hamidun's concert . banner ? tak cukup gila lagi nak buat benda tu semua -.- how was the concert? not bad laa . my face be like -....- bila putera buat mcm2 semata-mata nak dapat album free drp that singer . one word to describe them - BATAK . the last day , a contestant of Pencetus Ummah , PU AZMAN also came to smap for a talk . he made many jokes to make sure we wont sleep during his talk . haha. kadang-kadang , lawak dia be like krik krik . THE END . unforgetable experience :) yey

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